I sometimes think that if, in some other world during some other time, it was possible for someone else to BE me for just a day but still maintain their own objective identity, I'd be able to learn a lot. So much time is spent these days discovering how humans are more similar than we ever thought: DNA, psychological conditioning, instinctual tendencies, etc. And then we spend the rest of the time, breaking these models apart, finding difference: racism, classes, genders, etc. And then, maybe when you get older, I think you just kind of give up spending/wasting your time on these questions: Balance.
Nevertheless, I want to be free of the boundaries separating self from medium, medium from audience, and audience from their selves. Just for a day, I want to know: Although my life is normal, am I? Am I simply a bunch of electric signals flying around a brain? And if I am, is the motion and behavior of the electric signals at least unique?
Want me to relate this to China? Too easy, because this is life's boundary-less question. The mortar making up the foundations of countries, cultures, and languages is exactly this question. And when it dries, the foundation is strong enough for the structure to be raised, and it's interior inhabitated. But the answer's are shallow, the foundation can only support so tall a tower. The Bible warns us about trying to build to heaven, does it not? Religion, nationalism, and even science fail to take you beyond. What is China? A guessed answer to this question, shared by many.
me and some acc kids at the talib kweli concert (one of my favorite musicians). who would of thought he would come to beijing to perform?
2 comments:
I like the word "balance" that you used. Be thoughtful, retrospective and live in the here and now. Sorry no other insights to your thoughts and exploration.
but if some reciever could actually capture and display your thoughts, you would of course miss out on the attempt at conveying them--and however exhausting, annoying, and potentially futile the attempt to articulate yourself may feel, my guess is that you know much more about yourself and your world than, well, i do, for example. and please excuse my imposition in assuming that knowing yourself is important to you, but i believe that i can assume such given what i know of you.
still, i often wish someone could objectively be me for a day, or a few days... and i wonder if that will ever be possible. i also wonder whether i would in truth gain more from an outsiders perspective on my life or be more embarresed by what they might discover about me...
and by the way, i recently finished my first movie. hopefully i will get it up on my blog soon, but thats why ive been mia for a while...
much love,
L
ps i am so ridiculously jealous that you saw talib... and what could he possibly have been doing in beijing??
Post a Comment